note to self ; sorry.

these blogs aren't exactly what i had in mind for the beginning of 2010.

Last night my better mood was crushed, because he text me and basically admitted that he'd used me.
This was after trying to tell me i was wrong, and that i should just 'get it out of my head'
couple of minutes later - 'i feel terrible, i didn't want it to turn out like this. I got greedy'
to me replying, 'so even after you realized it wasn't what you wanted to happen you carried on using me?'
and then him finally admitting that what i was thinking was correct.
I think I'm actually exhausted from crying and hurting. i got to sleep at 4 in the end.
I bet you're bored reading about it.
But I've realized that this is the only way i talk about my feelings.
I'm not really sure how it works from here, because this has never happened before. Do i just feel like this until i wake up one morning and I'm okay ? Or do i have to have some sort of epiphany ? ha.
I'm already fed up of feeling like this.

Back to the good things that are happening in my life :
I just bought tickets to see Owl City in Feb. So i guess that's one thing planned for this year so far.

And thats all I've got right now.