Monday, 23 November 2009

note to self ; you're going to be okay.

So recently i haven't really felt that good.
My eczema's really been getting me down, its all over my face, and it doesn't seem to be going away :( Which is horrible because its making me so self conscious and i feel hideous.
I've also felt pretty lonely recently, and that is never a good feeling. And so i've basically spent the past week feeling sorry for myself.
I had such a horrible down today as well, up until this evening.
College was okay, but then i had work, and i found myself getting so angry and upset. The amount of times that something fell off of a peg when i was putting the delivery out and i actually wanted to just pull it all down and wreck the whole shop. But instead, when i was putting the empty boxes out the back, i let my anger out by jumping and kicking them. I sound really insane. Bad times. But it happened.
I also got really bugged about the fact i got out at 6.30 ¬.¬ all because Maria didn't feel like going home yet. She kept finding little things that 'had to be done' before we could leave. Which as you can tell really didn't help my mood at all !

I bought more christmas presents today though, and i also bought myself a hair clip and a ring which i love :)
Anyway, lets skip the rest up until the part where i get in a good mood :) .. I spent the past 3 hours sat at my dining room table with my brother, my stepdad and my mum and we were just sat chatting about anything and eating yummy food :) So that made me in a better mood haha.
Im looking forward to this week.
Pub quiz, oxford friday, bowling&frankieandbennies saturday :)
It'll be fun. I'll be poor once again, but its all for a good cause ;)

Night

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I'm 17, i'm at Abingdon College doing Art and Design. I love to draw, cut, stick, and generally make a mess. My room is never tidy and i have way too many cushions on my bed. I'm excited to see what 2010 brings.

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