note to self ; nope, nothing to note down.

So im not in the best of moods. I feel crushed, empty, and hurt.
But i'll put those feelings to one side for a second, because before last night, i was feeling great. And so i don't want my mood now to destroy the description of the past two days, because they've been quite good :)

First off, i dont think i did anything friday, i worked, but i dont think i had plans for the evening ? Probably just sat around. Saturday I went to Solent University for the open day. I was a little disappointed, but it was an okay day. I went with my stepdad because my mum was ill :/ and the uni was alright, the course talk and the studio space wasn't so good. I thought the woman that teaches on the fine art course that i went to look at was a bit weird. & she kept laughing at me because i was carrying a witches broom. Yes. Jokes were made about how that must've been how i'd arrived. Want to be remembered as a first impression ? Carry around a broomstick. The reason i had the broomstick was because seeing as after we'd seen the halls of residence we had like 3 hours to kill and so we went into town. and oh myyyyy there are so many shops and malls and places full of treats and gifts and items that i wanted :( it was depressing (due to my lack of pennies) but also quite amazing :) And was at this time that we purchased the broom, for my little sister to dress up with for halloween :)
Which brings me onto my next point. ANNIS' HALLOWEEN PARTY WAS SOOO MUCH FUN !
It started with me going round hayleys to get ready with her, so i arrived, followed by Matt, who i answered the door too and got the shock of my liiife haha. He was dressed up as the joker, and he looked fucking awesome ! Then lauren arrived dressed up as a vampire woman thing with a freaky black wig, which she was really proud of because she'd cut a fringe into it haha !
From there we went to Annis' and consumed alot of alcohol through drinking games and just general sipping of the cider and vodka and spirits and wine and everything else that was at hand. So after a few hours at hers, taking photos, singing & dancing, sitting on bathroom floors, creating a seating area of smokers outside and chatting, plus other people turning up and being invited, we decided to gate crash at Jade O'deils ( an old friend from school ) and it was alot of fun ! Her mum is bloody insane, everyone was dressed up and there was drink everywhere, people dancing, in the garden they had a little fire thing going and sweets and things. It was all so wicked. However the night came to an end for me at around 12 because someone informed me of something that made me cripple over in pain and cry my eyes out for about an hour. Which wasn't fun at all. All im gunna say about it is, i've never felt so much emotional pain in all my life and i hope i never have to feel like that ever again. I wandered home in the end, because i soon became exhausted from crying in Annis' arms haha. I woke up this morning in just my underwear, laying on a bag chocolate and smelling like a bonfire. My initial thoughts were - 'why am i wearing no clothes?' 'whose chocolate is this?' and 'why do i smell like a bonfire' and the only one i was able to answer was smelling like a bonfire because of the fire that jade had at her party. I was surprisingly not that hungover and so i got up at 12, got dressed, and went over to Dannys to finish my cds. 3/3 complete. Good Times.