note to self ; i've finished my tarot cards.

The project where we had to redesign 5 tarot cards to make them more modern...

the moon

the wheel of fortune

the magician

the hermit

the fool

note to self ; sunday

i've woken up feeling like i had a heavy night last night - which i didn't. So this can only mean one thing - i'm coming down with something.
Oh also, quick update on the kidney pain situtation... its now all in my lower back. Which is an annoyance i wont lie.

I managed to get to tiffs last night, ignoring the back pain. But by the end of the night it was a lot worse. I got the bus, but then when i got off, i couldn't really walk, and so i practically crawled home.
But yeah Tiffs was fun :) we watched music and lyrics, WHICH I LOVE. its soo cheesey, its brilliant haha. and then we all had fun watching Ollie torment Tiffs cat.

Today im not moving from my bed.

note to self ; well pain isn't so fun.

today i had my interview at portsmouth, and i absolutley loved it. The interveiw was soo friendly, and instead of asking me questions about my work, he (Bob) was just having a general chat to me about who i was what i liked.
And then we were doing this sort of scenerio thing were i had to guess things, and basically it involved me guessing the age, name and job title of his wife, i was one year away from her birthday, i got the name wrong, but, i said she was a nursery teacher and she is infact a nurse that works with children. HOW WEIRD. and i then guessed the colour of his living room right, and said that he probably had wooden flooring and was right with that as well. Note, i have never spoken to this man before in my life. IM PHYSCIC ;)

And so basically, i really really liked it there. It was a really modern building and the art on display was SO cool. He said i'd hear from them in about a week telling me whether or not i've got a place. So fingers crossed :)

Okay so then the bad thing of my day happened.
On the way home in the car my kidney started to really hurt again, and i mean like i've never felt so much pain inside me in all my life.
I got home, told my mum she had to call the doctor and then just cried for a good hour. Thats how much it hurts.
Anyway, practically crawled into the doctors, and i had to pee in a pot (walked in on some guy having a poo - wonderful) and then the doctor tested my pee to find there was nothing wrong with it, but shes sent it off anyway. I swear if it comes back with nothing wrong i'm going to be like then why the fuck does this keep happening ?! So now, im on antibiotics. Isn't that just a barrel of laughs.

Tonight i've got to somehow manage to get my ncfe stuff together to take in tomorrow, even though i really dont want to move from this spot.

note to self ; i'd just like to inform you

that i just attempted to make the 5 minute mug cake.
Which is a group on facebook that tells you how to make a cake in a mug in 5 minutes.
And guess what, IT WORKED. hahaha
and it was yummy :)

note to self ; so this is what i read..

apparently if you slip one stocking over an erection and hold it taut, then slip the other stocking over the first one, you only need the lighest of touches because of the sensation it will give the guy from the friction of the stockings.

Thats an interesting fact that i read today. I wonder if it works. ;)


Also, i had another one of those - 'jazz you should NEVER have been born' moments today, i went over to Danny's which is 2 roads away from mine, like a 2 minute walk, to get a cd with photoshop and illustrator on, and in the packet there was two bits of paper with codes on. His mum was like now, dont lose any of it. so i was like yeah yeah i wont.
I was walking back, got to the pathway near my house flipped the case over, and 1 of the pieces of paper was gone, i was like shiit where is it. I spent about 15 minutes walking back and forth the way i'd come from his to mine, looking for this bit of paper, i phoned his mum, and she came out to help me look for it for another 10 minutes. We walked back to Dannys, and she was like, knowing you, you dropped it in my house. i was like probably, thats how unlucky i am, i fail at life. We opened the door it was sat there on the floor in the middle of the doorway.
BUT it means i now have the software on my laptop so that i can actually do college work ! GET IN :)

Another thing going on in my life today was that, i thought i had hunger pains earlier, turns out its my kidney hurting, so im back on stuff to help get rid of cystitus and my mums trying to book a doctors appointment for me. No women doctors available until the 8th March (useless), so im going to have to see a man. About a bladder problem, so that'll be fun, 'oh doc, my kidneys hurting and it hurts when i pee'

One more thing, i designed a 'possible' tattoo to go on my foot today :)


COOL!

note to self ; well that was a barrel of laughs.

So the past few days have been really good.
Thursday Annis came to pick me up and we headed off on our road trip to high wycome. I'm pleased to inform you that we arrived in one piece, i mean, we got a bit confused at some round a bout but thats because of the bull that was falling from the sat navs mouth. it lies !
and then we sat in the car eating crisps and sweets whilst we waited for Annis' interview time seeing as we got there early. Two things we learnt was that high wycome is full of a lot of muslims and also that the pay and display is mental there. But the uni is pretty cool, and Annis got in so all was good :) I sat in the cafe whilst she was having her interview and just gazed at all the beautiful guys that walked by.

We then got back in the car to start making our way to Indias, Annis made some man made at her which was fun. Eventually we made it to Indias, where we had some beautiful pasta and ice cream, and caught up and got ready to go out. We had planned to go to the Ben Johnson but it was closed because toby is like bankrupt or something odd, haha, so that was cool, we then walked to the checkers in the snow. Got there, drank wine and cider and merrily chatted about guys, sex, love, friends, and all sorts of banterish things.
When we got back to Indias, we got into our comfys and settled down with baileys, more cider, crisps and sweets. (note - do not mix cider and baileys, it goes lumpy) and we watched ferris buellers day off. Which was extremely good i might add.

Then next day we headed into Bicester village to have a gander round the shops, and generally depress ourselves with the site of expensive gorgeous clothing and hot guys that seemed to be around. We then had to leave, tried our luck on some scratch cards from tesco - didn't win, and got food. Then it was time to drop India off home, and head home ourselves, to then get ready and leave again for Owl City that evening.

We met Mark in town and decided to walk to the o2 as we couldn't be bothered to wait for the bus. I really needed to pee and not gunna lie, its was quite a walk.
When we got in there we found Matt, and then the bands started, Lights were okay. Owl City was pretty good, but made it highly obviously to the general public that he is infact, a complete fag. I don't think i've ever seen dance moves quite like his before, he was fluttering around the stage like a fairy with a wand stuck up his ass. It was amusing. They also played 'fireflies' mid set, which i thought was a stupid decision. But oh well, whatever floats his boat.

Its the last day of half term, and all in all, its been a bloody good one this time. Im satisfied. Im now trying to download some sort of programme that will help me do my work. Im failing. Fuck not having photoshop or illustrator. It sucks butt.

note to self ; your love your love is my drug.

things are extremely exciting at the moment :)
thats the way uhuh uhuh i like it.


recently, i know, i've been an absolute failure in the blogging world. What can i say, things have been going on, some things that shouldn't be publicly aired in a blog - so i'll keep you in suspense with that one ;)

Completely off the subject of keeping you to date with the goings on in my life. I just signed in to Myspace for the first time in months, why is it that all Myspace seems to be these days is a website for creepy guys to send me messages saying - you look like your good in bed, lets chat. or for naked girls who think they're gods gift adding me thinking im that way inclined ? I just recieved this in a message - 'Hi random i knw but if u give up on guys be sure 2 let me know lol
no offence
take care xxxx'
That girl obviously thought there was something about my face that screamed 'lesbian waiting to happen'. I tried to delete my account, but when i signed up i used an email that i dont know the password too - i now regret being so forgetful as you have to recieve an email confirming you want to cancel your account haha oops. I used to think Myspace was a site for showing the more creative side to yourself, whether it was a band site, or a personal site. Now i think its turned into a site where sluts and womanizers TRY to flaunt themselves. Note ; you look cheap, get a real life.

Its pay day in two days, which makes me extremely happy as i have £5. I dislike all the pretty things around me that attract me into wanting to buy them. Theres a pair of tights and a ring at work that i almost bought yesterday, but alas, only £5, life fails me once again ;)
And although you would think - she can buy them when she gets paid. £115 has to go towards our Paris trip. I owe my dad £50. My contact lense bill is £22. My contract bill is £24. I NEED to buy printer ink so thats another £24 of my wages gone. And if we take that away from what im going to get paid, it leaves me with -£9 yes thats right, MINUS nine pounds. I guess i'll just have to live like a tramp for the month ;)

Beautiful.


Im off to my dads later for dinner with Annis and my brother, should be a laugh, plus we get to see the baby. Tomorrow me and Annis are going on a road trip to high wycome for her interview and then thursday night we're going to the pub in India's village seeing as us girls haven't got together in a while. The plan Friday is to have a gander round the shops in bicester village, for me and Annis to then come home get ready and head into Oxford for the 'Owl City' gig. Im excited. VERY excited.

I'll let ya'll know how it goes ;)

Laters Sexyy

note to self ; i well wish

that i had ink in my printer.
that i had a ps1 with all the old school games on it like, rayman, and spyro and crash bandicoot.
and i also wish i had sims to play on my laptop.

tonight im in a proper gaming mood.

happy valentines day.

note to self ; :)

The past few weeks i swear have just been so good.
And especially the last few dayys !Thursday night = Forces partyyyyy !
Started off at Rach's, pre drinks and getting readyy :)
Then we got dropped off in wantage, and i went off to Rosies to meet Annis and Helen etc, and Rachel went to Nicoles.
More drinks at Rosies, and i pierced my ear !? lol.
Then from there we headed off to the blue boar to the partyyy ! And it was so much fun ! It was more of a social gathering with loads of people than a party, seeing as i don't think i danced once haha, i just went round with the camera taking pictures of anyone and everyone and kissing everyone.
At one point me and Annis wandered in to wantage town, she thought she'd lost her phone so she went back to the pub to look for it, left me in wantage, turns out - it was in my bag.

Last night we went to Sams, had a few shots, played old school truth or dare, it was a good laugh :)

Think i might be going to the pub tonight with Rachel. Dunno though :)

note to self ; did you know

when you type in lazy onto a phone when its on predictive text, it comes up with jazz.
The connection is completely relevant.

Today -
|Paid in my deposit for Paris.
|Sent off my Eportfolio to Brighton.
|Found out that my predictive grades are, Distinction, Distinction, Distinction.
|Had Work



Right now in my life... Im so happy :)

note to self ; don't you just hate it when

you get a crumb stuck under one of the keys on your laptop and so then the key doesn't press down properly? Yeah, i currently have that problem. And i bet you're wondering which letter, well fyi, its the Y. ;)

I also spent money that i dont have today, i bought a police outfit for the party thursday :) excitiiiing !
And so i have £4 left in my account to last me until NEXT friday. Unless i get my ema, which hopefully i should :)

Oh also, the peacemaking sweets worked haha. Danny and I are no longer at war. Good times.
We were also trying to figure out what to do valentines day, we were thinking cibo, but then both concluded that we can't afford it haha.

toodles mothaaaah fuckkaaaah.

note to self ; its been a while.

whats happened in the past week ?

Umm, Annis passed her driving test :)

waheyyy ;)

oh and so did Sam :)

ROOOAD TRIIIPS ;)

umm, college has been fun. and also stressful - i managed to send off everything to falmouth, so hopefully fingers crossed i'll hear back from them :)

Friday me and Annis had a night out with the boys, which was alright, except it ended up with me having a massive arguement with Danny. and so im off round there tonight with a peace offering of love heart sweets haha.

thats pretty much all i have to say.

i haven't missed being online. Just goes to show how much time i waste doing nothing on here.
Time to download music :)

Oh also, i got the other side of my nose pierced on Monday, which i love :) I also bought the cutest necklace (which i broke Friday night :( Bad times )
but you can see my nose here...