note to self ; i am extremely happy :)

The last few days have been wicked !
I'll try and catch up from where i left off.
Sunday night Scotty came over, stayed over and took up THE WHOLE bed. haha. Then on Monday i had work which was okay, it went quite quickly and plus it was double pay as it was a bank holiday. Well, either that or time and a half. One of those. haha :)
Monday night, Annis came over and we had a cocktail and a general chit chat.

Tuesday - Began with me being picked up by Annis and Emily, and we drove to Reading for some shopping. We basically couldn't find anything haha. I had so much money, and spent barely any of it. I ended up buying two tops, some jewelery and the 'fml book taken from the website'. haha. Which entertained me ALL day Wednesday.

I woke up Wednesday morning in such a horrible mood. (You made it worse).
I sat on my floor crying for a while haha, just simply because im really scared of how much its going to hurt me when you leave again. ALSO, im freaking out, because i haven't had any replies from my UCAS yet, and Annis has had 2 ' yes' '.
But i basically started reading the fml book. And it cheered me up so much haha.

Okay so. LAST NIGHT.
I headed over to Annis' for 6, and we proceeded to drink this disgusting red wine that made me want to be sick. Haha, we then left hers to go get Mikeyyyyy. And got the train to Oxford. We met India and Mark in The four Candles because they had already been there for a while. So me and Annis got in a pitcher of Purple Rain, which was yummy. And mikey had a Bulmers. And whilst waiting or the others we chatted away and proceeded to get merry. Matt turned up next :) And then Tiff. And we basically spent the whole night laughing, chatting, drinking and taking photos. Mikey also filled my bag up with ketchup sashes, and a christmas bauble that he'd stolen from one of the christmas trees in there haha. India was the first to leave because she was getting picked up at half 10. BOO ! She left her gloves in my bag. Then Mark left, and somehow managed to forget his bag haha, and so Annis has his bag. Tiff left because Joe was picking her up, he had to work late and so he couldn't come out :( Bad Times Uglyyy ! So it was just the four of us left, because the last train home wasn't until just after 12. We then left heading over to PT. But i didn't want to risk getting Annis in trouble because it was her passport i was using as Id. haha. ;) So we ditched that plan and went to get food from Macdonalds instead :) It was then time for the 3 of us to get our train. Me and Mikey walked ahead of Annis and Matt and so got to the train station before them. We were then like HURRY YO ASS ANNIS haha. And off we went back to Didcot. Wandered the streets of Didcot because Annis wanted some cheesey chips but everywhere was closed and so we just headed home :) haha.



Today I've basically done nothing. Its New Years Eve tonight but i have no plans, but tbh, im rather liking the idea of staying in with my family eating loads of food and playing games.
My new years resolution this year is too put money into my savings each month and under NO circumstances will i withdraw any. I forbid myself too haha. But thats all i've got so far. Im really looking forward to this year. And now i just cannot wait until its summer. I hope everyone else has a good night tonight. And i'll see you next year ;) XXX

note to self ; christmas should last longer than two days.

Yeah, i count boxing day as part of christmas.

Christmas was just wicked :)
christmas eve me and Annis had a few drinks at hers then got picked up and taken to Rosies, which was just laaaavly. This guy called Ewan turned up who went to my primary school, and spent the whole night just staring at me, and then towards the end he goes - 'did you go to northbourne'. haha. he was a little bit good looking too. ;)

I woke up at 6:30 christmas morning to the sound of the twins going - 'oh my god, Em, look!' 'Luke look what i have'
Yes, the twins were awake and opening there stockings at half six in the morning, it was sooo cute though because they opened them together rather than taking them downstairs, they're like 4. Mental. haha.
I decided to throw on a hoodie and go and see what they were doing. Followed by Jack waking up. We went downstairs, had our stockings, and then all 6 of us opened presents. I had to go back to bed and then got up at normal people time - 11. haha.
The day was full of lots of food, messing about with the twins' presents, and watching films. I got loads of wicked stuff :)
I finally watched monsters vs Aliens, which is actually quite funny. And then i watched Happy Feet, which i think is fucking weird, because its meant to be a kids film, and then some parts in it are scary. Like when the penguin gets chased by a fuck off huge seal which actually looks proper creepy. (if you've seen this film, i hope you know which part i'm on about) Bryans parents came over for christmas dinner, which was a bit annoying because it meant that everywhere was cramped, and his stepdad creeps me out. ew. So at like 6 i sneaked off and had a bath, then by the time i was done they were gone. I feel mean. But, it was quite harsh because after dinner, they went out to their car, came back with 3 massive stockings, the twins each got one and my mum and bryan got a joint one. it was bloody awkward for me and Jack to sit there watching them all opening presents whilst all we got was a card. Rejected? YES. So i was glad when they finally left. But all in all it was a good day.

Yesterday morning my Dad came and picked me and Jack up, to take us to his for our second christmas haha. I got some more wicked stuff, including a LOT of money. LETS GO SHOPPING ANNIS !
I also got some more wellies seeing as my mum threw my other ones away -.- :)
It was also lush seeing Baby M again, shes sooo funny. We were watching something, catherine tate maybe? yeah, and you know when people laugh in the audience on the programme, well Baby M would just start laughing because she could hear it on the tv. It was mental.
We then had the yummiest christmas dinner. Hands down, my stepmums roast dinners are better than my stepdads. haha. Sorry but i wont lie.
After Dinner my Dad starting making us all cocktails, Blue Lagoons and Pina Colada (which i just had to google how to spell lol ;D)
We then started to play that game where you have post it notes on your heads and have to guess what you are. I gave my brother suuuuch a shit one haha, i wrote 'foot' and stuck it to his head. And then Jack gave my dad 'Ian Beale'. haha i LOVED it. This involved a lot of laughs. We then ran out of post its haha, and so stopped playing... three beers later and my brother was asleep on the sofa. We all then spent the rest of the evening eating more food, and watching tv. We watched Taggart - which was funny as we then all started talking in a Scottish accent.
It was suuuuch a good day.
Even though i feel bad for kind of prefering the day i had at my dads to Christmas day at home. But its sooo much more relaxing. Haha

My dad dropped us off this morning at about 12. Its just gone 6 and theres still no sign of family number 1. God knows what time they're coming home.
Scottys over later anyway. So at least i wont be bored for much longer.
MERRY CHRISTMAS BYE.

note to self ; ITS CHRISTMAS EVE TOMORROW !

Today i bought a new bag. and i LOVE it :)

I haven't posted in a few days. So yesterday we had our mini christmas feast at Tiffs house, i LOVE her mum for buying us loads of yummy food and making sandwiches and things :)
Annis gave me my christmas presents, which were MITTENS ! and a NECKLACE and a LITTLE MISS SUNSHINE BATH THING :)
it was all soooo cool !
We managed to exchange gifts before the boys got there because they were useless and late :) haha
Joe arrived first and i gave him his christmas card, which resulted in him running off to steal a empty card from Tiff to then write inside it saying -

To Uggers Ugg Ugg UGLY!
Have a happy, happy christmas
and hopefully people won't confuse your face with the Turkey!
Lots of Love, Love Ugly XXX

And i kid you not my friends. Isn't he a lovely boy ? ;) haha
But after Matt had arrived and we'd stuffed our faces we went upstairs and chilled out on Tiffs bed, which more often than not equals in all of us involved in one big fight. Normally started by Joe and Annis and then just gets the rest of us involved because we're being kicked as a result of them rolling about.
We also listened to music and sang to eachother, whilst chatting and telling stories to one another. Me and Annis left at like 3ish because i thought i had to be back for bowling. As i jumped onto Tiff and Joe to hug them goodbye Tiff managed to crawl away and i was left being squeezed to death by Joe and then he started tiggling me. BAD MOVE. i think i kicked Matt ? haha. It was a bundle of fun though.

I didn't end up going bowling in the evening like i said we were going to do. Because literally EVERYONE (minus my bro who is a hoe) has some kind of illness. Which is delicious.
Instead Scotty came over at like 10. It was so odd seeing him after all this time. And so lovely. He ended up leaving at like 3 in the morning. Leaving me one extremely tired person.

Today i went into Oxford with Annis and we met India for a coffee/IceTea in Cafe Niro and exchanged gifts, she bought me a little Makeup bag/purse and inside was face soap and chapsticks :) its laaaaaavly :) We all had big chats and caught one another up on our lives. Then went out and shopped, i bought a new bag from topshop = win. And some jeggings. Annis bought some too. Then India left to go meet her friend, and me and Annis roamed the shops to find her a hat. After looking in every single shop we could think of, we finally went back to topman (for the third time) and she finally bought a hat :) Mission accomplished.
Im now half laying, half sitting on my bed, listening to music and passing time until Scotty comes over later :).
Excitment fills my bones people.

2 MORE SLEEPS UNTIL SANTA COMES !

note to self ; i wish i had a hobby.

RED HAAAAAIR :)
i love it ! However today i realised that im not going to be able to wear my red coat because i'll look like a dick :) all in red. haha.

I also decided today that when i go into Oxford on Wednesday i cannot take Hayley with me because i want her presents to be a suprise :)

Today is already 15.08. I managed to get up early enough to see my Aunt, just simply to hear all the gossip about my cousins who haven't seen in years. It was alright, i can't for the life of me remember if there was any interesting gossip to record.
I then spent the rest of the morning on Mario Kart. And now im sat here, like, shiit im so bored. Sundays are always boring, even though im pretty sure i could choose to find myself something un-boring to do. But nah, instead i'll carry on sitting here, listening to the radio. Pay day tomorrow. Even though its a shit amount. but ah well, Christmas day soon. GET IN. BYE. ha :)

note to self ; i have red hair :)

Thats right ! I dyed my hair, well Annis dyed my hair and it didn't turn green or bright red, or purple ! It looks really nice :)
I'll take pictures tomorrow.

I was trying to figure out how to spend tomorrow :) I might get up early enough so i can see my aunt. Because apparently shes coming over at 11/12. But then what do i do ? Oh i need to finish wrapping up presents :)

Today i had work, and it was really funny, even if it was dead boring. We covered Rach in glitter, used two cans of glitter spray on her leggings haha. and then right at the end of the day Anisha managed to spray her right on the nipple, so it looked like she had a gold nipple haha. And Rach kicked me in that ass and im pretty sure im going to have a bruise haha. Theres also some really disgusting meerkat toys that have come into stock that me and Ana were pissing about with :)

Im sooo excited for the next two weeks ! That is all.

note to self - what the fuck.

You're pissed off with me because i didn't come into college this week? Umm wasn't Annis off all week as well ? Yes.
I asked if you were okay earlier and what was wrong, you were like everything. everyone.
I was trying to be there for you asking who had upset you. and you were like, i just dont want to talk about it.

and now you get shitty with me because i jokingly say that we should've done something tonight and you say that we were going to and get pissed at me when i couldn't make it because i had plans with my family for my brothers birthday well sorry they got cancelled.


but you can just fuck off acting like that. I've done nothing wrong.

note to self ; more money :)

I got my ema today, even though i haven't been in college ALL week. SCOOOORE. haha.
and so today i bought the nice black lace top from new look that i wanted :) annnd i bought some hair dye and some new nose studs because the old ones have fucked up my nose :( bad tiimes.

I also had a funny experience in sainsburys that only i found funny. My mum wanted me to get some milk and so i was in sainsburys picking up milk with Annis. Nathan walked past because he was working, looked at me, looked at the milk and i went 'i need milk' haha. but my voice said it such an odd way.
I then got freaked out when using the self service check outs. good times.


OH AND! woke up this morning and there was snow everywhere :) ! however it meant that it was freeeeezing outside :( and on the way from the bus stop to college i got an ear ache :(
But when we got there, everyone had bought yummy food in and the side was full with cups so we could make tea. it was goood times !
So we spent like an hour sat around listening to music and eating :)

I also got my hours for next week and i was expecting to have been put down to work loads but i haven't which is wicked :) I only have to work Monday and Christmas Eve :) im glad im not working boxing day - thank you for having two familys.
Im well excited for my second christmas at my dads :) We're making cocktails ;)

The only minus of today was that i got my wage slip for monday, im only being paid £153 :( thats the lowest i've EVER recieved. fuck liiife. oh well :) BYE


Ps, today is my brothers birthday, he liked the speakers i bought him. Im looking forward to the party tea that we're having later. Party Food = Good Times !

note to self ; -

Today i wish i could show my real emotions, and talk about my feelings.
It would be nice to be serious for once in a while.

but last time i did that, you broke my heart a little.



Today i started wrapping presents, and it went soooo badly haha ! I can't wrap presents :( however it got me excited about christmas day :) and im also excited for monday, if not nervous and afraid. and im excited for tuesday when we have our mini christmas lunch at tiffs and wednesday im going shopping for last minute christmas presents. and then thursday is hayleys meal. THEN ITS CHRISTMAS DAY ! wooo :)

BYE

note to self ; i love receiving free money :)

Guess what ? I came home from oxford to check my emails to find that i had an email from college saying that i was eligible for a £50 Raising Achievement Bursary, which basically = free money :)

A FREE £50 :) GET IIIN

obviously i have to spend it on 'text books' and other things that 'relate to my course' but whatevs :)

I also received an email letting me know that my ucas has been sent off. AHHHH :) excitment fills my bones ! I can't wait to get out of this shit hole. even though i will miss my family and annis kate :)

So im now sat here like, wow today was just win all around !

Oxford was wicked, it was well good seeing Matt again. We sat around all day haha. Spent like an hour in coffee republic. Went to Christchurch - made a video of a hissing goose. Then went to Macdonalds and sat there for ages. Some asians made me want to punch them -.-

Annis made some amazing faces, i swear i almost peed a little ;)

The only bummer of the day was the fact that i had NO money :( I couldn't even buy any chicken nuggets - FML !

i cannot wait until i get paid on monday. Im going to buy those two tops that i saw in New Look today :)

So yeah, today was wicked :). End of Blog.

note to self ; to pass the time.

Annis should be here soon.
Then we're off into oxford to meet matt and tiff. I wish i had money :(
My mum came up earlier and was like, you're in oxford today aren't you. i was like yeeah, she goes - can you get one of those little ginger bread houses for me please. (something i bought the other week)
I was like suure, but you'll need to give me the £4 because i only have £5 to last me the day (yes folks, including travel)
So she came back up the stairs, holding £2.60 and goes - could you blag the extra £1.40 from Annis because this is all i have in change on me.
hahaha. I love that my mum wants me to borrow money from my friend for her - however she did add - tell her i'll pay her back in her christmas card.

Also, i woke up this morning with two bastard spots on my chin. How on earth do you gain spots whilst you're sleeping ? I MEAN REALLY.

anyway, i'll inform you of my day later. XO

note to self ; I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF.

My room is spotless ! I have successfully gained a bookshelf and transfered all my dvds and books from the shelves that were threatening to fall on my face at night. And i safely removed the demon shelves and put them in the bin :) SCOOOORE.

I also took all the photos off of my wardrobe and put them in the space that the shelves were because where i'd taken down the shelves there were fuck off great big holes in the wall haha.

And then because i had 'dead bear inside (Laurens Pressie)' with a picture of a bear next to it, drawn in massive blue writing across one of the doors on my wardrobe (thank you Annis) i spent a good half hour scraping it off. haha. It was effort. But now my wardrobe looks clean and not tacky and old. WICKED.

So my plans for the rest of the night are to just sit. I feel as though today has been an extremely productive day :) ! Also, it was snowing earlier, it would be wicked if i woke up in morning and there was snow everywhere :)

Tomorrows plan is too see Matthew Arse :)

Also me and Annis have just decided that on saturday we're going to dye my hair :) Probably a plum colour. :) I hope it doesnt look rank ! :)

Anyway i'm bored of blogging now. BYE

note to self ; today wasn't all that bad.

After i moaned about tidying my room, my mumma came home and helped me :)
when i say helped, she did it all, i sat and sang to her instead haha. well actually thats not all true, i did help a bit, but then my mum was like 'oh jazz stop stop, you are useless. i'll get jack to help me.' haha.
And so now my room doesn't look so bad. However my mum says im not allowed to go to college tomorrow because 'we' need to do the rest haha.
I need to go into town and buy a bookshelf, because at the moment my tv is balancing on the corner off my bed. Don't get me wrong, its on, im currently watching friends, and the best thing about it is i dont have to move to change channel. hahah.But still, i dont really fancy sleeping beside a tv.

And i moaned about work, but it wasn't all bad. because i got sent to the stock room to scan things and re-price them :) which meant i could just sit down for four hours, listening to my ipod and i stole a lolly :) haha. And then Rach came in at 6 to help with more scanning i swear i almost peed from laughter on numerous occassions. I love Rachel Warrington. haha :)

I feel so much more relaxed now that today is out of the way :) good times.

note to self ; this was such a bad idea.

today is SUCH a bad day !
i got up and was like, nah, i cba with college, was eating breakfast looked at the time, had missed the bus anyway, so i decided to just stay at home and tidy my room.
Im currently sat in the corner of my room on the floor, theres so much shit around me. I've moved my desk and it looks shit, i wanted to move my draws over to where im sat, but cant because have just noticed that my tv aerial wont reach all the way over here. There is soo much shit over my bed, hence why im sat on the floor.
And i rung up work to see if i was working my usual 2-6 because i haven't looked at the rotas in weeks. And turns out, im working 2 - 8. WTF. end of life.
So not only is my room an absolute state, its going to need a lot longer than just 3 hours to sort out. And then im not back from work for another 6 :(
I feel like today is going to go on forever. Its only 10 to 11. but already, today is a mega fail.
I'll probably update you later on, letting you know how my room looks, and to let you all know im still alive after spending 6 hours at work with martina :| pssh. BYE LUCKY PEOPLE WHO ARE ABLE TO JUST SIT AROUND.

note to self ; buy hayley a birthday present :|

So last night was an absolute joke. I headed over to Annis' at like 9ish, and we had some disgusting champagne that was the colour of piss. Annis managed to drink it, i was done with 1 glass haha. It was horrrriiiiiibbbllleeeee :)
I had a glass of vodka and orange and an orange flavoured lolly instead of the champagne.
But basically, the plan for the night was to go to a party that was happening down the road from Annis' and so we went, it was a really weird shaped house and it was so squishy in there, we saw meg and as we were running across the road my vodka fell out of Annis' pocket and smashed onto the floor ... NICE ONE ANNIS.
haha but we got in there, saw Lewis in one room, i randomly turned around to have a glance to see if anyone else was there i knew... and there stood my 14 year old brother... And this is quite a funny thing, because before i left i told my mum and Bryan where i was going, and Bryan was suddenly like 'no Julia, just no' and when i asked what he was going on about he replied 'Jacks in hagbourne tonight staying at some guys house, he better not be going to this party' i laughed and was like i very much doubt he'll be there. and wait.. HE WAS. hahah. it was sooo funny, we and Annis just laughed so much. And then Jack was like 'what are you doooooing here Jazz' i was like WHAT ARE YOOOOOU DOING HERE and then he goes - please don't tell mum ! hahahaha.
That was possibly the best part of the night. We left that room wandered around for a bit saw Max - ew. Saw Jason, hadn't seen him in a while. And we saw Jack. Then me and Annis were like - fuck this lets go back to yours.
So we were there for a good 5 minutes and then left.
I ended up coming home at like half 11. haha. Theres just no other way of describing the night other than - 'that was an absolute joke' hahaha.

Oh also, i just have to record, that yesterday i woke up at 4. Good times.


I should probably get dressed and tidy my room. Then i might see if my brothers home yet hahaha. BYE

note to self ; never drink again ;)

hahaha last night was one of the funniest nights of my life.
I went to meet Danny and the others at half 8. When i was getting ready, i thought it would be okay just to have a drink, i accidentally ended up getting tipsy, BY MYSELF ?! haha, but ah well ;)
The night started with, the 7 of us walking through a field. The reason for this was because we couldn't all fit in Dannys shed and so decided to just go for a wander about. This was a BIG mistake. I don't actually know how big the field was, but what i can tell you is that we seemed to be walking through it in the pitch black for a good hour. And it was sooo muddy ! And i fell down ALOT of holes. We finally got to hagbourne park, which has been done up btw and is all new, its wicked !
Me and Nick had a good ol' chat on the swings. Danny is now seeing Gaby ?! Small world. Nick had to leave early to go meet Nat, and so we walked him some of the way, i ended up smacking him in the face by accident harder than i thought, and felt like a really really really mean person ! He left, and then the rest of us found Sam, who had wandered off in a mood. And we then went and sat down somewhere. I don't remember getting home.
I woke up this morning, naked in my bed. My clothes are covered in mud. And i went downstairs to my mum going you were sick last night.... I don't remember at all, and so must've blacked out. WONDERFUL :D
I cannot wait to see Annis tonight and tell her all about my eventful night. Im also excited for champagne and the random house party we're going to go to. However, i know that i really shouldn't consume anymore alcohol haha. :)
I love that recently i've been having such good weekends ! :)

note to self ; all my girls at the party, look at that body, shaking that thing like you never did see, got a nice package alright. HIT IT

Yes its Janet Jackson. And Yes i love it !

So, yesterday was wicked :). Went into Oxford with my mum and my nan, and i bought loads haha, i spent £70 on underwear, tights, socks, jeggings, christmas presents for people, and a dress and a belt to go with it.

I've just inserted a picture too the left. too the left. too the left. Me in my dress in a picture to the left. ;D haa.

Its for Hayleys 18th on the 24th when we go out for a meal then bring in christmas day sat at the bar. Its going to be wicked :)

But anyway back to shopping, we had Lunch at Prezzos in the castle grounds - hadn't been there before. And it was really nice. However i swear my mum and nan got drunk on one bottle of wine between them. I was like seriously you ol' biddies, handle yo drink ! But yeah it was lovely :)

College today was pointless haha, i did no work, then we went to 'la baguette' (insert little move here) which was yummy however i almost had many a spillage. haha. Then we just skipped the afternoon and came home. I tidied my room, well i say tidy, i kinda picked the things off the floor, and thats about it. I've downloaded some new music, during the moments of spazz my laptop decides to have. Not gunna lie, its been difficult, i've had to restart about 4 times since coming on at 3ish due to it being such an old fart machine. Damn it and its old age.

Oh also, i found out that Lauren got punched in the chest at a gig tuesday, and so is coughing up blood. NICE.

Anything else to report ? OH YEAHHH... i don't have to work saturdayyy, keeeeeerching ! Neesh is going to cover for me because i covered her sunday. Which means tomorrow night i can go out with the boys and not have to worry about getting completely drunk :) Thats always a plus :) And then saturday night i think me and Annis miiight MIGHT, go to some girls party that we've been invited to in hagbourne, but i reckon we should go for a while just to see jack and lewis and then head back to hers and drink it up :)

either way, this weekend will be good :)

OH ALSO, i found out today that reading next year starts on my 18th. so im liiike fuck sake haha. Goodbye birthday boat party plans, hello reading festival. It would be cool if i could do both, and people are saying that i should do something after reading, but by then the excitement of turning 18 would've gone. and i really wanted to do something on the day i actually turned 18. So if anybody has any suggestions of how i could get round this problem lemme know :)

note to self ; remember to buy gifts tomorrow.

Today was our deadline for our ucas application. I sent mine off to my tutor a few days ago, and didn't bother checking today if she got it or not. But i heard through the grapevine that theres a little tick near my name, and so that bit of info suits me fine.
This morning was horrible. I actually couldn't keep my head off of the table for very long, and at one point i was curled up in a ball using my scarf as a pillow on a wheely spin chair. Damn colds. They always make me feel like shit, even thought a cold is hardly a life threatening disease. But whatevs :)

And so after a lemsip (which did make me feel better) I was in the car on my way home early from college, taking a detour to tesco express so that i could buy some eggs to make myself some scrambled egg on toast.
I spent from 1 until 4, caining it on mario kart. Im obsessed. But its sooo addictive haha.

I've suddenly gone like 'yuk' again and so im back to being exhausted, however i'm looking forward to going to Oxford tomorrow with my mum and nan for some christmas shopping. Yes i have emptied my savings into my account. And yes part of me does feel like this is a wrong choice. But another part of me, the majority of myself, has decided to start saving once the new year starts... New years resolution : Save and don't keep taking it back out.

Wonderful.

note to self ; nothing to note.

Today i'm not very well.
I hate having a cold :/ it gives me NO energy at all.
I've basically just spent the day sat in bed listening to my ipod.
And then i started crying. Wonderful.

note to self ; your contact lense bill will be coming out tues, so dont spend any money.

I came home from work today, to be completely confused because i couldn't hang my coat up... the banister has been cut down. It is no longer there. So we now have an open staircase. I swear my house just looks like one big workshop. haha.
My mamma clearly saw my look of confusion as i stood holding my coat looking to where the banister had gone and laughed. At which point Bryan laughed and went - 'now try hanging your fucking coat up' and so, to prove to him that i would still bug him by putting my shit all over the house, i proceeded to hang my coat on the little stump of wood that was sticking out of the floor. Its no higher than my ankle. And so the image of this was highly amusing and had my household in stitches. Rip Banister.

Anyway this weekend... its been alright, now where near as good as last. So friday night Danny called me at like half 8, and so i decided that i wouldn't let loneliness get the better off me and i wandered round to his, and we sat in his shed with popcorn and cider and sat watching music channels talking about sex. it was really funny :)
Saturday i had work, and then in the evening i went over to Hayleys and we had wine and chocolate and a chat. And i walked home in the rain :( bad times haha.
And today i had work all day :( and i never work sundays because i don't like doing it. But i came home and had family time on the wii. Well for all of 5 minutes and then everyone left and it was just me and Jack, and im sad to say that he kicked my ass on mario kart. Damn it. haha.

College tomorrow, but at least i don't have to work after. Score.

note to self ; damn life.

I wish i had money to buy some nice new underwear. im sick of my old stuff, im sick of it not fitting properly.
I would like some nice clothes too. some jeggings, and i wish i could find a nice pair of boots and not worry about money coming out of my bank account.

like an ever lasting bank account full of millions of pounds.

damn life. damn things being so expensive. damn needing and wanting so many things.

note to self ; you really have no money now.

So today i got up, got in the shower, couldn't stand up, fell down, then i was sick. And so now, im sat on my bed, i didn't go into college because i can't stand up for more than shall we say a minute ? without feeling like im going to collapse. And the worse part is, that there isn't really any reason for my body to be acting in such a way. Actually no wait, thats not the worse part, the worse part is that i'm sooo incredibly poor and me not going in today means that i possibly wont get my ema :( which means i could probably be overdrawn next week unless i take money out of my savings but i really don't want to get into that habit again. But then again i really don't want to be overdrawn... its a lose lose situation.

I'm going to take a stab in the dark and say that today is going to be a very unproductive day, just due to the fact that i can't really move around all that well. I might do some art, probably. But i wish i had a book to read, i've read all the ones on my shelf. And i'd borrow one from my mum but then all of hers look boring and having boring covers. 'Never judge a book by its cover' Suuure suure, but im an 'artist' im a very visual person ;) Maybe i'll go for one of the twins' should be an easy read ;)
Or maybe i could watch a film ? But then im not really in the mood to watch a film. And day time tv sucks, and i dont fancy listening to jeremy kyle shout at pikeys with loads of babies today. So thats a no to that too.

Oh guess what ? I sent off my ucas application last night, so now my tutors need to give me a reference and then i've applied, hooow scary !
i've applied to, northampton, falmouth, portsmouth, brighton, and winchester. I'll probably get in to none of them haha. oh well.

Im even bored of writing a blog now. Later Alligator.

note to self ; text ana about shifts on saturday.

So today i got quite a lot of work done. I managed to do 3 more illustrations for photography which included taking a photo of Greg and making him into frankinstein. It went rather well i believe :) haha.
Indias and Gregs, and Tiffs are the best ones :) Ollies is crap, but oh well ! aha

Umm I've also made plans to go round Hayleys with Lauren on Saturday so that'll be good fun. And i think tomorrow if i can be bothered i'm gunna go keep Annis company whilst she babysits the mutant children :)

Thats all i have to say haha :)

note to self ; buy baby M a birthday present

So today i cleaned and tidied my room. Can you believe i actually cleaned it ? Like full on, polished and hoovered it haha. So now its tidy and smells clean haha :)

I spent the rest of the afternoon adding more drawings into my bird book :)

note to self ; its yaz's birthday soon.

Pinch, Punch, first day of the month ;)
and i don't even have an advent calender :( someone buy me one ? :)

i was just moaning to my mum about not being 18 yet and she replied - 'well its not my problem, you should think yourself lucky that you're alive at all... you were an accident'
haha i absolutely love my family. And people wonder why im so mean ? ;) haha

today i started filling out things on UCAS, and it went okay. Part from im really worried about choosing the right university :/.
Thats all that happened at college today.

I had the dentist after, and on the way back me and Luke had a piggy back race against Jack and Emily. Me and Luke won ;) but, then i noticed that my ring had fallen off so Team JazzLuke, went back to find the ring. hahaha.
Oh i almost killed my little sister earlier too, and this is how ... We were messing about and i pushed her back in a chair which knocked a shelf thing which was swaying, a lamp with a huge stone base fell off the top of the shelf, smacked her in the back almost smashing into her head. It was an eventful moment.

And thats about all to report. Until next time.