note to self ; its laurens birthday soon. (just warning you in advance)

I really can't be assed with blogging tonight, today has been so busy, that all i really want to do is just sit.

So first of all ... I HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH WINCHESTER SCHOOL OF ART ! it was absolutely amazing. Its such a nice place, and the course sounds wicked, and the studios are sooo good, they're huge, and you get your own work space which is basically like a little room in itself where you can keep all your stuff throughout the year. & there's like 2 massive library's that are just full of art books. & we went to visit halls, and they're cosy and cute. In fact I'd call the whole place cute. Right next to the uni there's like a massive nature park and it has a stream and is full of ducks. & then when you turn into the avenue its just lined with trees. Its soooo cute haha :) I woke up this morning and i was like i want to go again haha ! & so so far it is definitely my first choice :)

Today hasn't gone so well, I had a crap driving lesson after my instructor turned up half an hour late, i just cannot drive. Well i can, until i have to change gear or look in my mirrors, or turn left or right. I just fail. So that made me feel like total shiite. And the amount of times i've left my house today to just come back in under an hour is just pure jokes. I left this morning, had my eyebrows done and was home. I then left for my driving lesson, and was home in under an hour because i couldnt have the full hour seeing as she was late and i had to be at the opticians at 4, so i got home from driving barely had time to eat before i had to go back out again to the opticians, which pissed me off EVEN more after my crap car lesson and this is why... My appointment was at 4, i got there 5 minutes early, i sat in the waiting area for 25 minutes before somebody called to see me, and in this time, people were coming and going whilst i was sat there shouting in my mind 'I WAS HERE BEFORE YOU', and so as i was glancing around i saw little 'specsavers feedback' note laying on the table next to me, it is from here on when i released all of my anger into one little comment... There was a checklist that had a range of phrases and next to them was four tick boxes that said - 'very good', 'good', 'acceptable' or 'poor'. One of these phrases read.. 'Length of time you had to wait for your appointment' i circled poor. It then had at the bottom of the A5 leaflet 'If you have any other comments leave them here...' with a text box under neath it. I put, 'Specsavers is Shit!'
And into the comment box it went. This strangely satisfied me and in my mind i recall myself making some sort of 'yeeeah' sound. Yes you may think this is sad, you are probably right. However, Specsavers completely deserved this.
When i finally got home from that, i sat for half an hour before heading over to Dannys because i was in need of some layout paper and his mum had some. I spent the next 3 hours there working on my cd cover because she also has photoshop on her pc. SCOOOOORE ! i was sooo happy ! So i've now fully completed 1 cd, and it looks wicked ! I really have the urge to upload it onto this blog, but i wont. & so tonight concluded with me telling them that i'd see them sunday when i would be back round to finish the other 2 cds.

As for now, my work here is done. Im going to go get ready for bed, because i'm knackered from all the running around i had to do today.

note to self ; dont forget all the appointments you have on thursday

So im having a quick break from doing work, because im downloading paintshop pro, seeing as photoshop has failed me. No doubt after waiting half an hour for this to download, the same thing will happen. Which will kinda be a bit shit considering i need it to edit my cd covers and finalize them. Fingers crossed.

All I've done today is college work. I opened my eyes at approximately 12 this afternoon, and i was like shit, the day is nearly over. Which obviously it wasn't seeing as there are more hours in the afternoon/evening, than there are in the morning. Turns out i must've needed a lot of sleep last night. I went to bed after receiving a phone call from Ryan Oliver Scott :) I was actually screaming omg down the phone after i'd realized who it was. And the only reason why i didn't realise it was actually him was because i picked up the phone, looked at the caller id to see that it wasn't a number i recognized and thought 'great its that guy asking for colin again' because for the past two days i have been receiving numerous phone calls and voicemails, from a man called 'phil' asking for a man called 'colin' who i know is his brother and he wishes to talk to him about there father who has recently passed away. Its funny what people leave in voicemails not knowing whether they've dialled the right number or not. Phil has clearly not dialled the right number because i am sure that my name isn't colin, and last time i checked, my father is still alive. But anyway, i spent a good half an hour on the phone to Scotty telling eachother that we missed eachother and generally taking the piss out of one another, it was a lovely surprise hearing from him :)

I've just checked to see how the downloading is going - and it appears to have stopped on 52%. fml. On a better note, my mums just come in to inform me that we're having chinese tonight - sccooooore ! People coming into my room and telling me good things, seems to be an ongoing occurrence recently. & i liiiike it ;)

Im off to Winchester tomorrow. To have a look at 'Winchester School of Art' It sounds so posh ;) I hope its not as much of a disaster as the last uni i went to look at haha. I'll make sure i fill you in on that one.
Meanwhile -lets see if this thing i've downloaded is going to work.

note to self ; do work tomorrow.

Today i was rudely awoken at quarter to 7, by my mum coming in my room, making me sit up, just to have a go at me about something i was ment to do for my stepdad but hadn't (with good reason, which she wouldnt listen to)
I was just agreeing up until the point where i could hear her then having a go at my brother and saying that 'we never do anything to help' to which i shouted so the whole of the street could hear, the two words, 'fuck' and 'off'. Considering i'd babysat the twins and bryans other son all night because we recieved a phone call telling us that my mums grampy had been rushed into hospital. She then came back and we spent a good ten minutes shouting in eachothers faces and calling eachother dicks. She was then bringing up stuff that was completely irrelevant and i HATE it when she does that. When you're having an argument with someone and they start bringing up something that happened weeks ago. I mean we never argue, but this morning, we both went for it. Yes, this is how we roll.

Wont lie though, i was pissed off. But at the same time, need a way to get you going for the day ? Have an arguement.
The argument ended in her telling me she was never going to do anything for me ever again, and me going 'your such a dick at times'. Yes this may seem to the general public as a rude way to be speaking to your mother, but i'd just like to reassure you that this is the sort of relationship i have with my mum - if either of us are being dicks, we say so. I get called a lazy bitch a few times, and i then proceed in telling her to 'do one'. So yes, i may seem foul mouthed. But its only because i'm expected (by her) to give as good as i get.

I left for work at 12 after being ignored (which was to be expected) and i then came home armed with crisps, chocolate, and ribena because i also expected to get in and there be no dinner for me. I was wrong. My mum had calmed down and there was food on the table. All was good. I think this is because on my way to work i text my stepdad, asking what the hell was my mothers problem and wishing him goodluck with her when he got home from work. Which he replied to something about his nipples being hard and complaining about how my brother is a little bitch and woke them up in the night on his xbox. (see its not just me and my mum who speak to eachother in nasty ways ;) ). My family are such fags :)

Im now sat on my bedroom floor and my arse is so numb that it hurts. I should probably move. I have a few things to do before i settle back on my arse to watch one tree hill. All is gooood.

My 4 year old sister has just come into my room armed with sweets and told me that i can have them because she doesn't like them. Scccore !

note to self ; keep your room tidy.

So this is more of a blog to distract me from putting the quilt on my duvet and having a little tidy up of my room. I don't understand why i cant completely finish a task before i stop. So far - i've got the quilt cover, and tidied up have of my room. I dont really get why i feel the need to then sit down and stop. Im also finding that recently i am constantly tired, and im thinking, maybe i dont get enough sleep ? but that can't be it, because isnt the average hours of sleep your ment to get a night like 8 or something ? and i definately get wayy more than that. Maybe i need to start taking vitamins ?

Okay so i've been home from Annis' for about 5 hours now, and i've been sat on my bed the whole time. I've only just noticed that my pillows don't appear to be anywhere on my bed :/ which means someone has taken them ? which leads to the questions... why ? & where ? I'll have to hunt them down in a bit. Something that is on my mind right now is that yesterday i found a cd that Annis made me ages ago, and so far on it theres been, justin timberlake (win) the all american rejects (oldschoolwin) cascada (lose) that car wash song with missy elliot in (lol win) and now, busted, its the crash and burn song that had to be changed because of the twins towers ? or some sort of explosion/bombing? Omg 'reel big fish' have just come on (mega win)

On a more serious note, something that i cannot stop thinking about is the fact that Scotty comes home in 8 weeks. Which i am both excited for, and really really really scared about :/ Seeing as i haven't seen him since New years. It feels like hes been gone alot longer than he has though. It'll be interesting to see whether things have changed or not. I hope they haven't but at the same time i hope they have. I've missed him so so much.

note to self ; spend your money wisely this month

I got paid £157 on wednesday, i now have £108. And i have now idea what i've spent it on :/ Im trying to re cap in my brain what i've bought over the last couple of days, and all i can think of is, food, and alcohol. Oh and i bought some make up yesterday to cover my hideous face.
To be honest though, getting paid only £157 in the first place is probably the lowest amount i've ever been paid. And its a big drop considering my last pay check was over £400.

It also sucks to know that i wanted to buy things, and now i cant because i have to save what i have for driving lessons. Im also 'supposedly' saving up for :-

- a macbook.

- poland college trip.

- Am i having a holiday with my friends this year ?

- Oh, & the boat party i plan on having for my 18th.

So i dont know how im going to manage to do this. Problem.

Anyway, im feeling kinda tired and slightly hanging this morning. But only slightly. Which is good. Last night it was Annis' Pirate party, which was hands down the funniest night to get ready for :) It was really good seeing everyone that was there :) & plus matthew arse came down from cardiff. Tiff looked really pretty and skinny and just gorgeous, as per usual. But the hatred was soon forgotten as she bought a 'parrot' with her. haha.

I ended up drinking more than i planned to. & when it got to the time we had to leave, i was sooo hungry, and so i dragged Matt and Hayley down to one of the many take away shops we have in Didcot. & after ordering food, i was left to walk home on my own in the rain whilst holding a box of chips. Singing very loudly to myself so i didn't get scared whilst roaming the dangerous pikey streets of Didcot in the dark. Fun times.

Later on, when i can be bothered to get out of my bed. Im going back round to Annis', we're going to drink the rest of the drink that was left in her house from last night, eat loads of fat food, and watch 'the orphanage' and 'lee mack'. & im going to stay over hers for the first time since shes moved there haha.

But for now, i shall lay in my bed for a little longer.

note to self ; THINGS ARE SOOO GOOD !

So i havent written on her since 1 minute past 12 monday night/tuesday morning.
I then went to sleep, after happily texting annis the 'birthday sex' song, mixed in with 'lisa its your birthday' (im so cool)
Lets see if i can re-cap the events of the past 2 dayyyys.
Tuesday was a funny day. Annis came over in the early hours of the morning to recieve her gifts, she loved them, obvs. We then got a lift to college. And then sat at college - Annis got more gifts. One of which included chicken and an egg mini racers (from trb). So we raced them for a bit.
Then the morning went and we got a lift home, and Annis came back to mine for a bit and i tidied my room, and i cant remember what the point of annis coming back to mine actually was, but we did end up sucking the remains of some helium from my balloon, so that was a funny 5 minutes.
Then Annis left to go recieve more gifts from her family and i was left to sit around alone for a couple of hours before i had to wander on down to work for the meeting. Which was really fun. I got there and everyone was already there sat around the stock room table which was covered in soooo many treats and delights (scooore) and so as you can imagine, 4 teenage girls and two 22ish year olds stocking up on sugar whilst trying to have a serious meeting didn't go to plan. Instead we all pretty much ended up having a laugh.
I had waayyy too many chocolate mini muffins, and i really shouldn't drink coke. I left the meeting feeling sick and bloating. So tried to walk off all of the junk food i'd just eaten by wandering over to Dannys, who i hadn't seen like the summer (well not properly anyway) So i sat at his for a while just catching up on his and his family lives. It got to about half 10 quarter to 11 and he stood up and goes 'come on, we're going out'. Ummm it was raining. But we ignored this fact and went to his dads where he said he needed to do something with a computer or something. So i sat around being nosey at all the things his dad had in the computer room and it turned out that after sitting around for about an hour of my life he couldn't actually do the thing we'd went there to do. So that was fun ! Well actually it was, its odd how i really dont mind how boring the surroundings are when im with someone who i like spending time with. So then we left, dropped off a dvd to Dannys friend, and then i made him finally walk me home. And i went in and went to sleep. haha.

Wednesday went a bit like this...
Even though i started college at half 1, and after spending half the night wandering around aimlessly with danny so going to bed at like 2. I still had to get up at 7. Because - i needed to get my haircut. So i threw on some clothes grabbed my make up and my bag, and got in the car. My mum then drove me to go get my hair cut at uni parts (some big business building in oxford) because i dont want anybody else cutting my hair apart from Martina. (yes i know. odd)
So after getting my hair cut and catching up with Martina about our lives, I then went to my Nans to have tea and cake, we got there and the first thing she said was - 'i just got out the shower to find the dog had taken a shit in my living room' yes, hello nan. So we had tea, cake, i did some work. Then we left, went to tesco, had lunch, shopped for more food. Then i got dropped off at college - college was okay, finished photographing my fascinator, edited a picture of tiff on the macs to make her look like a horse, and then we left to start our evening at tiffs. Walked to tiffs, dumped our stuff, went out and bought pizza (this is starting to sound like bullet points now. but im getting bored, and i have to leave again in a bit ). We went back to tiffs armed with pizza and crisps and dip. Then Annis arrived with alcoholic fluids in bottles and some strange blanket throw that was going to be her duvet that night. Then India finally arrived, so we made the pizza cracked open the drink, listened to some tunes, and we attempted to put on all of tiffs outrageous clothes... i actually got stuck in one of her dresses. Lots of photos were taken. India attacked tiffs face with make up. After 3 bottles of cider, some stongbow, and lots of fun making a mess in tiffs room we decided to go downstairs and watch 'the strangers' which tiff described as the scariest thing we would ever watch, and that it was horrible and we'd have nightmares. It wasn't any of the above. I was expecting to get really scared and want to cry. It ended and i was like - wait is that it? has it been an hour and a half. Disappointment filled my bones. Howev, it was fun seeing India almost cry and say - im actually going to leave and go home in a minute.
The film finished we went back upstairs and, umm i think we sat around chatting maybe ? Maybe looking through peoples facebook and bitching about couples ? Well whatever we were doing - it was fun haha.

We got ready for bed at about 2ish, and Annis was the first to fall asleep. Tiff, India and I carried on speaking into the darkness about 'boy stuff' haha which was a hoot i can assure you ;)
Then we all fell asleep and woke up at about 11 this morning. I woke up after having a dream that i was a transformer and that i was in a race. I also dreamt that Annis had recieved a late birthday text from someone, and when i woke up, this appeared to be true. I must've heard her telling Tiff and India when i was semi asleep/semi awake.

I NOW HAVE TO GO OUT TO COWLEY FOR STOCK TAKE OTHERWISE I THINK I'M GOING TO MISS THE TRAIN. DAMN IT I NEED REST.

BYE LOSERS :D !

note to self ; 00.01

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNIS

note to self ; i had something i was ment to remember, but i've forgotten what it was

Im in SUCH a good mood ! :)
Work went really fast, and it was really fun. haha. This little girl came in and wanted her ears pierced, she was about 5, so we spent like an hour and a half trying to convince her that it didnt hurt, in the end i offered to show her me getting my ear pierced to show her that it didnt hurt. So i now have a brand new piercing ;) haha. But she still didn't get her ears done in the end. Bless her :) and also that fit guy i've mentioned before came in again today. with his girlfriend (die die die) ;) haha

I also bought the second part of Annis' gift. BECAUSE SHES 18 TOMORROW :D

Saw Damian today, who i haven't seen in a while ! we had a nice little chat as we all walked to the bus stop, and we were talking about birthdays, and the boat party that im hopefully going to have for my 18 next year, and so now im really excited for it ! haha i know i know. its not for ages yet, but still ITS STILL AN EXCITING THOUGHT !

Oh also, another thing that interested me today was that they sell crunchy nut cornflake bars in the loaf at col. So i grabbed myself one of those. It was sooo yummy :) haha.

I love that i've had this page open for over half an hour, i have such a low attention span haha. oh dear ;)

BYE BUMCHEEKS

note to self ; you need paracetamol

So i've been in a good mood all day. Up until like 5 minutes ago, when my stepmum text me asking if i wanted her to have a look at my laptop, and thats when i went back to being like 'for fuck sake'.
Basically my laptop is really bugging me at the moment. Its crashed about 6 times today. Thats pretty bad don't you think ?
& i bought a renewal for my Mcafee Virus thing, that cost me £30, and when i went to follow the instructions, it said (will only work from internet explorer, not safari) which is bloody great considering that my internet explorer doesn't work, which is one of the reasons why i bought the bloody mcafee thing to FIX IT. So rather than getting the virus thing to try and fix problems like that. I can't. So then nathan told me to download firefox and do it through that - which i did, but i still dont know if my mcafee is working or not. I set it for scan, but my laptop doesnt stay on long enough before crashing, and so then i have to start the scan all over again.
Its things like this that piss me off because i have no idea how to bloody fix it.
And like, it scans half of it and detects nothing. So i'm like well theres definatley something wrong with this piece of crap so why aren't you detecting anything !?

All i've seemed to have done this weekend is fall asleep? I fell asleep again yesterday when i got in from work. I think this is because i just want to sleep away this shit mood, and this crap weekend. I really wish someone would just come, pick me up, and take me away somewhere fun haha.

Sorry about these past couple of blogs being so crap. Thats just the way it is at the moment.

note to self ; don't forget theres a staff meeting on tuesday

Today im still not in the best of moods.

and plus, i can now feel a headache coming on. wonderfuuuuul !

i think the jab yesterday has made me in a bad mood. because other than that i cant think of any reason why i'd suddenly be in a bad mood ? Im really excited for the next two weeks.

i have good things plaaanned ! & i found out today that i dont have work next saturday which is good seeing as its annis' pirate party friday night - drink.

Nick came into work today - that was awkward.

i also saw matt richardson, who i haven't seen in a loong time, which was also quite awkward, but in a really funny way. He was being served in superdrug as i was next in queue, he turned around, saw me and laughed at me for no reason haha. But it was really good to see him. Even if i wasn't expecting it so was really confused with what to say. :)

I've got things to do. Im hoping this headache will go away because it isn't helping my mood.

note to self ; you're so unlucky.

you know how i was talking about being unlucky earlier.

I was planning on doing something tonight that needs a lot of the use of the printer. I went to use it, its run out of ink.

& my arm is starting to ache a little. :(

tonight im really not happy.

note to self ; please use this quiet weekend wisely and do your work.

Im currently sat on my bedroom floor with a powerade and a bag of sweets by my side. Im having a night in tonight, which wouldn't be so bad if it didnt suck to know that most of my friends are going out tonight and doing things. However this is my own choice. Because I've been so tired this week and i need to catch up on work. & im not feeling in a very 'people person' mood today.

Today when my mum was driving me and Annis to college this morning, she turned to me and goes - today feels like a weird day doesn't it? and i was like in a good way or bad way, she said bad. I then got this sudden feeling that today would be disappointing, i said this to her.

At half 12 when i went back to the car to meet her, i greeted her with -'i was right this morning, i stand here now disappointed' I wont go into the reasons of why, because there's no use in crying over spilt milk, but today was just one of those days.

We went into Didcot town on the way back and i bought lots of sweets and some other bits and bobs that i was in desperate need of, ie. Annis' Gift. (haha oops)

And having such a bad morning got me thinking about why things dont go right for me most of the time. & i was trying to work out whether it was because i always expect it to go wrong ?

Don't get me wrong im not complaining about my life, because i bloody love it and have so much fun all of the time. But like when i really want something, and i try really hard at gaining that something, it always goes wrong/doesnt happen. ever. I describe my luck like this - Imagine your using superglue to fix something, and you're being really careful not to get it on yourself. Well i'm the sort of person who will get to almost the end of the task and somehow manage to stick my hands together. I then begin to think - why fucking bother being careful. God hates me. This WILL happen. And i mean this with all the small things in life that i try and do good at. And also the way i see things going in my head is always the complete opposite of how they happen in real life. Maybe if i start to think of shit things, good things will happen. doubtful.

I've been rambling on about nothing really. I'll stop clearing my head of thoughts, and write about the facts of today..

+ Dear everyone who has already had their first cerivical cancer jab and thought it really hurt,

you pussy's.

(saying this though, now, knowing my luck i'll wake up tomorrow to find my arm has fallen off)

+ The one thing i did get right today, i got out of the car and was like 'OHHH WHAT IF MY CD HAS COME' i opened my front door and was like ' OHHH MY CD HAS COME'

(this made me extremely happy)

thinking about it, thats all that has happened today.

Oh i did have this one thought in the car as i was waiting for my mum to get the twins from school. I wondered what i would do if someone opened the drivers side door and jumped in and drove away with me. I was thinking - i could kick them out of the door (as we sped wildly down the road obvs ;) ) and because i kinda know the basics of driving now, i would be able to take control of the wheel and drive home.

Yes, i did have this thought. And yes, i need to get a life.

pahahaha.

i now think its got to the point where i'm trying to write more to prevent having to go and start some work.

GO DO SOME WORK FOOL.

;)

note to self ; remember you're having your jab tomorrow.

Yesterday ended with me and Annis wandering home a bit drunk, bounding down the streets singing and moaning about life. As you do.

This was because after spending the day at college making my paper fascinator, (which looks really pretty btw) Hayley invited us over for chinese. So we got off the bus and came back to mine so that Annis could sort out her manky self pierced top ear. Which i ended up having to get my stepdad to help out with. He came upstairs with a huge pair of pliers. So yeah, that was fun.

We then trekked up to Hayleys to find that Lauren was already there and that Hayley had set up the table for dinner it looked well nice :)

We then went to get the chinese, and whilst we were waiting some weird guy thought i was eyeing him up and smiling at him - i wasn't. Annis made me laugh and i looked in his general direction. So i had him smiling back at me in a weird flirtacious way. Pahaha, im such a dick :).

But anyway, after we received our bags full of chinese we took it back to hayleys and well ate :)

and we chatted and laughed and chatted and laughed. And they all gave me good advice on my 'boy situation'. So i'll sort that out when i next speak to him. At one point we were all laughing so much that Annis choked on her food, but after she'd sorted herself out, we went back to catching up with eachothers lives :)

And during this time, we consumed between the four of us 3 bottles of wine. I had 5 glasses. I was really quite drunk when i stood up at the end of the night. So was Annis, and so was Lauren. It was ALOT of fun :)

Today i woke up slightly hungover and craving lemonade as i always do after spending the night before drinking. i have no idea why lemonade though. Its odd :)

I've just had a driving lesson, which went well, at least i didnt kill anyone !

Im now watching 'yesman' which is so bloody funny :)

BYE :)

note to self ; your coins are running low.

yeah yeah well your just a mess, you do all this big talking, so now lets see you walking, i said lets see you walking.

Things are so bloody good at the moment !

Last night my football fwiend Matthew Arse texted me!! Which was a bonus to all bonus's, howev, i cannot believe he was 15 minutes up the road waiting for a train back to the land of the welsh, i wish he'd told me half an hour in advance so i could've got my boots on and strolled on down to give him some lovin' ;). But i settled with texting him for the whole of his train journey, which was eventful by all accounts. Can you believe that whilst he had travelled far and wide, i'd stayed in the same spot, sat on my ass doing jack :). But but but, i cannot wait to see him at Annis' Pirate Party. Gutted you're not invited !

As for today...

this picture describes it perfectly.

Me and Annis are absolute pigs ;)

We got to college an hour early because of the bus, so spent the morning in the macs messing around on photobooth. Which was so funny Annis pee'd a little ;) Nah she didn't really, but you catch my drift on how funny it was ?

So after that we spent the morning doing our work. Which was fun as i made a diggaaaah scooper out of paper plates and cutlery. As for Annis' project...

it was alot more fun ;) ( I wish that was my real tash... )

SO AFTER LOADS MORE FUN WE DECIDED ....

to go into Oxford for, well no reason really haha. So we trekked down to tiffs, where me annis and india blagged some of her dvds. & looked through her wardrobe for the gazillionth time at all her outrageous clothes. For Example - an extremely old coat covered in mud - NOICE.

Then we went to town, I went in just wanting a shakeaway, i came home owning a brand new hoodie and full up on macdonalds - which tasted better in my mind than it did when i finally bought it.. why does that always happen. fail. But we had a look around topshop and miss selfridge and newlook. Then we went to hmv, which was sad. I had to force myself out of the store because i was getting depressed looking at all the albums that i wish i owned. Damn life. Damn being poor. Just damn :)

We strolled down to extreme sports to see if Matt was working and to get Indias Mum a paintbrush (lol) Matt wasn't working, but we did bump into Jamie Morris who gave us stickers and £5 to spend in extreme sports. It was really amusing to see him attacking people in the street and forcing them to take stickers and leaflets. We then left him to it and went to get the bus. Which drove me to sainsburys where i ran into Maria and Kat who'd just finished work and had had an eventful day with the 'ghost' freaking customers out, and also knocking things of shelves in the store. Its getting a bit creepy now, apparently this young girl ran across the room telling her friends to stop pushing her around, and her friends weren't even touching her. Damn that ghost ;)

So then i strolled home with Annis, which brings me here, half laying, half sitting on my bed, listening to yet again, more epic tunes.

Im going to go make myself the most amazing milkshake in the world, obvs. & organize my college crap. Then i'll come back and probably sit some more. story of my life. ;)

haha see ya' later alligator. xx

note to self ; Annis' birthday is in a week. i still havent got her a gift. faaaack it !

First of all... ANNIS GOT HIT ON THE HEAD TODAY BY A FRISBEE.

Today was a long day, and i was in so much pain with my back, its getting worse. I dont even know whats wrong with it.

College today was really fun today work wise - printmaking is a lot of fun :)

And us girls made plans for a scary movie night next wednesday, which is PAYYDAYYYY ! woop woop ! i swear i get paid ALL the time haha. well it feels like that anyway, which is great :)

i've just watched an advert where they're singing happy birthday to new born babies. Im going to do that when i have a child. Because i bet nobody in the world has sung happy birthday to there child as soon as they were born. Knowing me though i'll probably forget :( haha.

im also having my cancer jab on friday. i hope it doesnt hurt haha. But it does mean i get to leave college early, waaaheeyyyy ;)

thats all i have to say :)

note to self ; rewrite up your to do list so you can actually read it.

So i just played the craziest game with my brother on the xbox, its kinda like eye toy but an xbox version. Tbh though, its not as good as the eye toy is. But at the end it makes it into a badass movie, and so my face kept cropping up every now and again in this haunted house. Which was funny to watch.

Work wasn't as bad as i thought it was going to be. It did go quite slowly, but this gorgeous guy came in, he was bloody hot ! with his girlfriend. boo. but he was still gorgeous. He obviously can't be from Didcot, because didcot doesnt have good looking guys. fact. Well, bar lauren, shes the prettiest boy in didcot ;)

The only bad things about work today were that

a) Neish came back from her lunch with chicken nuggets, which made me crave.

& b) we completely broke the till at the end of the day and so were out late haha oops. our bad.

We spent the day sat behind the till catching up because we haven't worked with eachother in years, and i painted my nails with one of the cool new nail varnishes that have come into stock :)

I also now own a little russian doll charm for my phone. Normally i think phone charms are just an annoyance, but this one was just plain cute :)

As you can probably tell, i am in a better mood now. So it turned out that i was moaning about having to go to work, but infact i think that made me feel better. haha. odd.

Im going to go and do some work, and sing loudly to whatever Cd i choose to put on. Im also thinking snacks are in order. toodle pip.

note to self ; remember to post the ds tomorrow. buy some blank cds. try to enjoy work. ha.

So its only like 10:44, so i havent done anything to write a blog about today yet. But, its more of a thought blog. Because as well as waking up with a robbie williams song in my head, i also woke up in a really bad mood. Well, i say bad, but im not actually sure if thats the mood im in. Because im not pissed off or anything. I think its one of those moods where you just want to be left alone for the day to do your own thing, and this isn't going to happen seeing as i have work in just over an hour. I absolutely hate working on sundays, like i know its only for 4 and a half hours, but work on a sunday goes so much slower than the same shift on a saturday ! I dont know why this is. Sundays and Mondays are the worse days in the world, just saying. And i think thats only because of all the shit they receive by the general public, Sundays are said to be lazy days, which make them boring, and everyones always saying that Mondays are crap, so you just automatically say that its going to be a crap day when you get up in the morning. If people didn't say that sunday was a day for rest, then you'd probably have an okay sunday rather than sitting on your ass, but now, if you do end up doing something on a sunday, its like damn, i wasted my day of rest. Which is just stupid. Same with Mondays, if you didn't have it constantly drilled into your mind by other people that Mondays were bad, you wouldn't think the night before 'oh god its monday tomorrow' Other than the early get up after the weekend. Which in my case this will make no difference as i've been up before half 9 both days this weekend. fml.

I think one of the most single handedly embarrassing things happened to me last night. I got asked out. By a guy i'd never met before. I mean, this used to happen when i was like 10 or something. Im now 17, and the guy was 20. He was 20 years old for god sake. Who in there right mind at that age thinks its a good idea to ask someone out who they've never met. All i could manage as a reply was - lol. He then said he was joking. Which is a sentence to hide - 'im so embarrassed, i thought you'd say yes.' What is wrong with people ?

I told my mum. She was like - what is it with you and attracting creepy guys. Story of my life.

note to self ; go to bed early tonight - you need sleep.

Its got to the stage where im so bloody tired that my whole body just aches. I don't know why i dont just have a nap, i think its because i think that if i do have a nap i'll miss out on valuable time doing college work. Even though im 100% i wont do shit all so then would've just sat around wasting valuable napping time. Im finding it hard to get my head around this thought.

I can hear my family downstairs, i should probably go and say hello as i haven't seen them in over 24 hours and i dont think they know i am home. I spent last night at my dads, he picked me up from college, which i was bloody knackered from, (tiredness progressed from there) because i'd spent the day doing hardcore painting of giant carrots and rushing around trying to get everything ready for the presentation that we had to give to the principle and vice principle. It actually went well, they liked our idea. I was almost set on joining in on the speaking, up until Matt presented his groups idea, and the princ & the wannabe princ (because isn't that what the vice principle is?) absolutely ripped it into him.

So anyway, i spent the evening at my dads watching various programmes on tv, eating fajitas, and drinking wine. Which was good. However, i was f*cking knackered by half 8, seriously, i actually wanted to close my eyes and sleep right then and there. I lasted until 11 before i had to crawl to bed, i was then accompanied by the dog who slept on my feet and kept them warm all night. Going to bed that late was a mistake seeing as i had to get up at 7 this morning to go to a stupid open day which was a complete waste of time seeing as it was horrible there ! University of Bedfordshire. We got there, the surroundings looked stingy as anything. We went inside the uni, flicked through a little brochere thing, i was quite disturbed to see that you didnt have a choice whether you wanted an en-suite bathroom in the accommodation, as i dont really want to share my bathroom with complete strangers first off. So i rung my mum told her about it, she agreed with my dad (for once) that we should just leave. We decided to walk into town just to see if there was some reason that was worth staying and having a tour. But it was dirty, there were more boardered up buildings than there were open, we practically got chased up the street by a man trying to sell us a book on spirituality. And then we passed a man who looked like he was going to mug me, he was rambling on to himself and had no shoes. My dad turned to me and went 'i think that just about sums this place up. shithooooooole. shall we grab a mcmuffin and leave?' and so we did exactly that, im thinking we may not have seen the good side of the place, but i really couldnt be assed to carry on. We got there at 10. We left at half past. We got lost on the bloody way home. It was like a repeat of the time me and my dad were in france and we popped out for some milk from the shop which was a 10 minute drive away and arrived back at camp 2 hours later, we don't know how, but we did get lost. It got to half 1 and i finally arrived home. I haven't moved from my bed since. Its now 14:49.

Im going to go put some music on, try and do some work, and go and show my face downstairs. See you.

note to self ; buy some mittens :)

I just officially sold my ds lite on ebay and got £60 for it. Get in. Which now means i can buy Annis' present without worrying about funds :) I love unexpected money, it is the best kind of money.

So today has felt like its gone on forever, but in a good way. I shall start from the beginning !

Got the bus into college, and these group of lads sat behind us kept making me laugh all the way from didcot to bingtown. Yes i was eavesdropping, and i don't care :). Had illustration today, so we were doing our music branding project where we have to design cd covers for the '70s, 80s & 90s' which got me thinking about music a bit too much and so i was wondering what bands i could live without, and if i had to choose 3 which ones would i choose, which, was the hardest question in the world, and i settled for Jamie T, Paramore, and Florence and the Machine. I also shared these annoying questions with Greg, which i'm sure he extremely enjoyed whilst he was trying to listen in class ;) haha.

I had my 3rd driving lesson at half 1, which was quite fun. I actually did something different this time, tackled a number of small roundabouts, and almost killed a big fat builder man, who thought it would be a good idea to just walk out into the road. Part of me wanted to roll down the window and shout 'wanker' but, i thought it would be rude seeing as my driving instructor sees me as being a nice girl who is polite. Ha, lies all lies.

This evening i went over to seen lgh, and we trekked our way down to the family planning clinic, (for reasons which will go unknown ;]) I had to sit around bored out of my face for about half an hour waiting for her to come out of the little room she went into, she eventually came out bearing gifts, so out of that experience i missed half an hour of life and gained a couple of condoms. However, i doubt i'll be using them anytime soon as my sex life is non-existant, if anybody knows of someone who is equally as lonely and as bored as i am then point me in the right direction so i can make use of my freebies - fantastic ;). Don't get me wrong, i do have standards, and so do not set me up with anybody who you are 'unsure' of there gender, have man boobs, no teeth, or smell extremely bad. Average looking and you could well be spot on. I have become aware this sounds more like a match.com profile than a blog entry. Oh well, shit happens.

But anyway, after waiting for what seemed like my whole life in that creepy blue waiting room with the crap music. We proceeded on the journey back to laurens for quishe, sausage rolls, and chocolate fudge cake, which was yummyyy ! Laurens younger sisters had stopped fighting by the time we were home, and were no longer wrestling on the living room floor, strangling eachother to the extreme of making one another throw up. You clearly should've been there ;) I always love going to laurens, her family is insane.

I think that is the low down on today. I'm really not looking forward to doing our presentation tomorrow to the principal of the college :/ i mean WHYYYYYY ! but OH well :)

i am however looking forward to an evening at my dads with fajitas and wine, before heading off to bedfordshire uni on saturday morning. I don't even know why im going to bedfordshire, it was one of those moments, when you're like - shit i need to start looking into unis, so you pick the first few that you come across to make yourself feel better and like you're a step closer to being organised, but hey, you never know, it could be a good uni. Wherever it is. ;)

Bye Bumcheeks.

Just a little note to say.

I like you.

note to self ; you have no note to self today.

So i've just got back from watching toy story in 3d, well when i say just, i mean about an hour ago, since then i've eaten and caught up with the latest 'facebook fun', which was a huge waste of half an hour seeing as facebook is nothing but a distraction from life. But anyway, Toy Story in 3d was pretty cool, + Toy Story is just an amazing movie and so it being in 3d was just an added bonus. Me and Annis sat right at the back in the middle, and during one of the adverts (which was in 3d) we stupidly ducked when a whip came right out of the screen, yes, you heard right, we ducked. However its always good when you're able to laugh at your own stupidity. In all fairness, it was our first 3d experience, and im not ashamed to also say that i really had the urge to reach out and try and grab the snow flakes that we're flying around the room. It was one of those moments where you say to yourself over and over not to do something - 'no dont do that, dont do it. Dont do it' and you end up saying it so much that in the end you just cant resist but to do it. You'll be glad to hear that i did manage to resist ;) Im just so cooool ;) haha.

I came home to the house being empty, well my brothers in, who i barely hold any sort of conversation with these days apart from the occassional 'can i have my laptop back'. I didn't even have to say that today though, i walked up the stairs to find him just sat on his bed holding my laptop out to me. It was quite hard to grab considering my hands were full of sweets which i just blagged from the kitchen side, i have no idea why but my kitchen is suddenly full of sweets, its like a real life charlie and the chocolate factory. Just without the weird looking bloke in a creepy purple suit.

The rest of my day hasn't been too bad either, i wore my new coat, and i feel like whenever you wear something new, you always feel great, so i was in a really good mood today. I also did loads of work, i cant believe the only subject i'm not behind on is fashion - and i hate fashion. We got the bus home with Kate and Ahren, i haven't seen Ahren properly in ages, he never fails to make me laugh.

Oh another thing that was quite amusing today was that Annis text me mum from her phone saying that i'd met a drug dealer and was carrying crack on me. To which my mum replied - 'tell her to get me some'. lol :). Annis thought it would get me into trouble, clearly, it did not ;)

Jesus Christ. Radio at this time of night is a load of shit. I need to turn it off before i slit my wrists at the sound of it. Then im going to do some work. t t f n.

note to self ; cheer up.

I'm soo tired ! I swear im always bloody tired these days. Im also starting to get a little stressed out with the amount of work i should be doing, and im so unmotivated none of it is getting done :/

I've just cooked the dinner, which was a success, and my family are still all alive and well, i on the other hand, have really burnt my fingers. :( I had to touch raw chicken, which made me scream, and my mum was like - thats what a penis feels like. I told her i agreed, she then told my stepdad when he came in, i think they were both shocked to find out that i've touched a penis.. little do they know its my own ;) jokes jokes.

College was pretty average today, Tiff was being a bitch today ;) me and Annis have definitely rubbed off on her, she was just firing with the comebacks today. She also got over excited when telling us that cheryl cole has beaten alexandra berke in america in the charts, i think she thought that we may've cared as much as she did. Nobody laughed along with her ;)

I managed to get ink all over my top during monoprinting even though i was wearing an apron, i dont know how it seeped through a plastic apron. Im hoping it will wash out.

I bought that red coat that i wanted :) Buying new things is fun, even though i shouldn't be spending money.

I wish it was the weekend, but at least i get a lie in tomorrow :)

note to self ; transfer some money from your savings for that coat you want to buy tomorrow :)

You would not believe how motivated i was yesterday, i have NO idea what came over me! But i did work non stop all day and managed to get 1 and a half mood boards done, which look really cool btw :)

today i didn't want to get up, and i hated that i had to all day. Our bus driver this morning had no idea where he was going due to the fair in abingdon closing the roads. We were on the bus and extra half an hour - he was such a fool :)

College was pointless today, i skipped across a field with annis and ollie for tiffs project, then kinda wandered around aimlessly, then took pictures of the road because the photos i took yesterday were on my phone and the crappy college havent enabled bluetooth on the macs for us. And that was literally it.

I then had work, which i really really really didnt want to do :( I hate that i have work every monday after college now. It went so slowly too, & it was sooo boring. I did get to eat some pic'n'mix sweets though, and i got so bored i dressed up in tutu's and feather boas, which i thought would make time go by quicker. This did not work.

This blog was boring as my life. Maybe i should pretend i did something interesting but today has been an unlucky day.

You know its unlucky if a bird shits on you ? Does it count if you put your hand in it instead, because thats what i did, this is no word of a lie. I was putting the bins out at work and put my hand in bird crap. I went in told my manager and she was like ' why did you do that? ' which i then laughed at because its not like i put my hand in it by choice.. ' oh i dunno, just fancied touching it' ;)

I need to do more work now. but im looking forward to buying that coat tomorrow :)

note to self ; get taxi numbers to put in your phone.

I got in last night at about 1 to find that blood was pouring from my forehead. I have no idea how this happened, when this happened or where this happened. I wasn't even drunk, so its not like i just can't remember, i genuinely have no idea what its all about. Haha. Also, my cold is much worse this morning, serves me right walking around oxford late at night without a coat.

Last night was such a lovely evening ! I caught the train to Oxford at 5 to 7, and met India, we shared a hot chocolate and walked up to tiger lily to wait for Annis to arrive on her bus, which she'd waited for 55 minutes for in Wantage, oh dear haha. She then text us and told us to go wait for a table at pizza hut. On the way to Hut, we checked the cinema times, and the film we planned on seeing started at 9, we made a decision that if we'd finished eating, we'd see it, if we hadn't we wouldn't, extremely thought out plan on our part ;)

Annis finally arrived whilst we were next in line for a table at Hut, then we all sat down and ordered food, as you do. I was soo hungry ! We ended up chatting about the incident i had last night and then decided that we'd find out more about each other, which actually resulted in us telling stories about our lives to each other that we may or may not of known, with the occasional multiply question of who we'd rather sleep with, celebrity wise. The food was really yummy, and we had a friendly waiter. We came to the conclusion that Pizza Hut kicks Pizza Expresses ass when it comes to service and food. Annis was pleased that her pizza wasn't sloppy like it was at pizza express the night of Tiff's meal all those weeks ago. And so before we left, we decided to give the nice waiter a tip :) and so we proceeded on with our boxes of left over pizza.

We then wandered around to the living room, but then changed our mind because it looked like it was packed, and we couldn't be assed to possibly be squished to death, especially seeing as we all felt twice as big as we did with the amount of food and drink that we'd just consumed. We ended up walking up the high street and into the Mitchell hotel ? or something with the word 'Mitchell' in it. And sat there for the best part of an hour with a bottle of cider and some water. Here we carried on with our multiple choice questions, and India decided that she'd spill her drink all over the table. Which was fun. ;) At about 11, we walked India to go get her bus because it was the last one she could get to as close to her village as possible, poor India living in the middle of no where.

Then me and Annis headed towards the train station thinking that we were about to head home ending the night, we were very wrong. We got to the train station to find it completely deserted and all the signs empty. We checked the typed up times to find that the train to Didcot was at 10 past 11 - we'd just missed it. fuck. There was then an announcement to say that no other trains were running. We then had to think on the spot of how to get home haha, so we ended up on a bus to Abingdon and i had to wake up my step dad to collect us the other end.

The bus journey home was eventful. Some guy got on the bus and Annis said to me that he looked like he was on something. A load of other guys got on the bus who knew him and they were asking him what he'd been doing all night all he replied, was 'everything' and that he'd been with 'everyone'.. about 15 minutes later he was sick all over the floor of the bus. Haha, it was disgusting, but bloody funny. All the guys who were talking to him made there way to the back of the bus, and the two guys that came to sit in front of us spent the journey talking to us about how we hoped that he'd stop being sick at the moment we needed to walk past. Thankfully he got off at a stop before us. We got off, said goodbye to the guys we'd been talking to, and got in the car to come home. I'm really glad my step dad wasn't angry with me for waking him up to come and get us.

So now I'm sat here, with blisters all over my feet, cold pizza in my bag - which I'm going to go reheat in a minute. And a load of work that i still haven't done. Today I'm going to try and get through most of it :) So off to be productive i go. Wish me luck.

note to self ; remember you're going to oxford tomorrow.

Today i did the craziest thing, i would never ever do, i don't know what came over me. But, i volunteered to be student rep. Haha, its the only remotely responsible thing i've ever volunteered to do, and so to me, it is a crazy thing to do. But i thought it would look good in my personal statement. Yes. Im that desperate for things to write about. However, Tiff also volunteered, so i'm sure that its going to actually be quite fun with the two of us doing it :)

Nothing else remotely interesting happened today, College was the same as any other day. We've been put into groups to think of an idea for a sculpture to create to put in the grounds of college. Me, Sophie and Teresa have come up with the idea of a giant apple archway with a mixture of healthy and unhealthy food on the inside walls. (We had to make it on being healthy). We have to create a presentation to present next week in front of senior management. It wasn't until the end of the lesson that i clicked on to the fact that we are actually making this presentation to the real senior management department of the college, to see if we can actually get a real sculpture on the grounds of the college. Which i guess would be really cool :) but i hope matt or tiffs group gets to do there idea. They want to do some badass wall art.

I also said farewell to Joseph today :(!! Which made me a little sad because my dose of ugly will be out of oxfordshire and off at uni! but we had a lot of fun sitting around his car for the half an hour that we were with him. In that time, Annis tried to highjack the car, i got pushed around by Joe himself and he also tried to poke a key at me. Tiff bashed her head on the roof of the car. We threatened a NeilMobile faker. And also saw a man who had no back windscreen, which was a laugh to joke about.

Im so glad its the weekend again, the weeks are going by well fast, its odd, but also good. Im glad the only plans i have is a 10 til 2 shift at work tomorrow and the cinema tomorrow evening, because i have sooo much work to do.

I also need to remember to take my photos for printmaking on sunday for our time based recording project.

Something has just happened that has pissed me off. I wish he'd just leave me alone.

People use the word 'sorry' way too easily these days. I'd prefer it if he'd quit saying sorry and just do as i ask. I also wish that i now had someone lovely to turn to to cheer me up. :/

note to self ; stop sitting around.

Today i wish i had a maid who would tidy my room for me when it got messy, that way i wouldn't have to do it.

I absolutely hate tidying my room, and every time i say that i'll keep it tidy, it never happens, its always back to being a mess again in about 2 days. Im such a failure. I also got well pissed off with the lack of storage, and as i was cleaning out my wardrobe, the more pissed off i got because i have no room for anything, and all my things just get ruined, my box of shoes is overflowing, and my clothes are so squished up together you can barely see what i actually have. &&& i had to put my stereo in my wardrobe because i need more space on my desk for the load of work that i haven't yet done. So now, if i have the stereo on, and the doors of my wardrobe shut, then it sounds muffled. Damn it.

You would also never guess that its a walk in wardrobe due to the amount of crap that i have just laying over the floor of it. You know that phrase parents usually say after you've tidied your room - 'oh thats what your carpet looks like', yeah? well imagine your bedroom floor covered top to bottom in things so that you literally could not see your floor before you tidied up, now imagine the bottom of a wardrobe. Well done, you are know portraying the image of my wardrobe in your thoughts. I thought it would be a good idea to tackle this issue, i was very, very wrong. ;)

A really big bee just flew into my room, its suddenly stopped buzzing. Great, that probably means that its in hiding waiting to sting me...

On a more happier note, you know you've had a good morning when you laugh so much that you literally just end up crying. It was one of those moments where your laughing so hard that you're cheeks start to hurt and you cant breath probably - making college, good. Then i had a driving lesson at 1, and i didn't crash or kill anything. Thats promising Haha ;)